(via wordslessspoken)
Friend
We have a conflict of interest here. I do believe you are holding me back. I feel the need to be mean to people when I am around you and I constantly feel judged in your company. You are completely uncivil to my boyfriend who has done nothing to harm you even if you may feel otherwise. I do not feel as if I can even talk to you anymore. I cannot express my feelings in ways that a friend should be able to. I feel I can only talk to you about the material things rather than the intangible ones. On another note, you do not believe in God. You have no religion and I am faithfully christian. I feel that you look down upon me for such things. Our friendship has bitterly demolished and I do not feel happiness around you. Instead I feel regret and pain and I want to evacuate your presence. All you seem to do is hang out with your boyfriend and pretend that we do not hang out because I am always with mine. It just so happens that I only see him two days out of the seven day week. The other times I am busy doing other things such as sports, church, and hanging out with friends who listen to me and actually care about the feelings I have and who read the bible, pray, and praise Jesus. Which unfortunately, you feel is “weird” and you do not approve of. Ultimately saying you do not approve of me. I cannot have a friend like this. I do not want to sound mean, but I just do not get along with you as I once did. I’m sorry for you and for me that I will never gain the courage to tell you this myself. Maybe this makes me a coward, I don’t know, but it just goes to show what this friendship has come to. Once again, I cannot tell you the things in my life that are not tangible, only the apparent things. I would calmly like to say I want you to leave and I am counting down the still mysterious days until. So for now, I will put up with you, but it won’t be anything special. I will express myself to my “Jesus Freak” friends who truly love and care for me.
So long, Best friend
I hope we shall meet again on different terms. Maybe someday in heaven. For the time being, I will have you set in my prayers in hopes of this coming true. That you will rightfully be placed in Heaven.
